New Year's Eve.

So my family decided to go to Seaworld today for a couple hours, and it was enjoyable. I could spend hours reaching out for the mucous covered bodies of sting rays in the Forbidden Reef. After we ate at the New Panda Buffet. Oh man, good food. I hate the fact that I never get to go out on New Year's Eve.

A December to Remember

My goodness, what a month. From dinners, to mean girls, to shopping to parties, this month flew by. This entire week there was never a dull moment. Saturday December 19th I had so much going on. First there was Becca’s Night in Bethlaham. The little kids were so cute but after staying at the census for a while got kinda boring.

My afternoon was spent at Pat & Oscars with Core Team. I got there thirty minutes late but when I did arrive everyone was like “Tracey!” and I felt so loved. Sarah and I managed to sneak away during the White Elephant game to pet these adorable puppies outside. Gosh, they were so cute. What would be a Core Team party without Big Booty!?! So of course, we played and I lost my earing, which I’m really sad about, but then again, it’s just an earing.

Because of Core Team, I was a bit late to the ASB Christmas Party at Mr and Mrs. Jensen’s, but that was alright because there was still a lot of people who came after me. Their house is huge! Their refridgurator can fit like 10 of me inside! That night was so much fun. We played churraides, opened our Secret Santa gifts (where Sara’s gifts had a theme of “black”), played wooden spoons and twister, and just a whole lot. I was extremely weird that night, but it was all fun. Mr and Mrs. J’s house has a lovely view from the backyard, and just sitting out there, watching life pass by, I couldn’t be more thankful for my life.

Then today I went to the American Apparel Rumage sale downtown with my mom! She spent a lot of monies and I felt really bad but at least the 21 items she got was for my dad, brother, cousins, and not just for me. I saw Rachel and Jackie there and we stood in line with each other for like an hour before it opened. But gee, my mom is so embarresing. Like before they came, she was listening to the group in line before us and then she laughed with them! Not a small chuckle but she laughed! Aayaww….but it was great. I guess the events of this week made me so tired that I took a 7 hour nap. Not sure if I want to call it that anymore. From 4 pm to 11 pm I crash while leaning on my brother during the Charger’s game. Then, since he ws annoyed and my bed had American Apparel clothes all over it, I just slept in his comfy memory foam bed. Maybe it’s time for me to go back to sleep…

Hello

I feel like at this point life keep going so fast. I'm going from one place to another, I have another thing to work on, or I just have to do something. It's nice to spend some time to rest and catch up on an episode of Gossip Girl in my cozy bed. I never really liked Chuck Bass that much until this episode. His vulnerability so thoroughly hidden over a hard mask finally breaking through completely made me see a whole other side. Thinking about this reminds me of what the Father whom I went to Confession with discussed about judging others and not seeing every aspect of their life. How can we judge them when we haven't been there? At times, I find my thoughts so intriguing but I can never share that moment with anyone else. When someone has thoughts, from intelligent thoughts to thoughts of confusing indecisiveness, they influence every decision one makes. It was so hard for me to see the real Chuck, which makes me wonder, do others see through my mask?

Yes, I must admit I am one crazy girl, but I'm more than that. When all my crazyness peels away, I am the same Tracey Nguyen. Oh gosh, I absolutely hate that question: "Who are you?" I never know what to say. No words can ever describe who I am, not my ethnicity, my beliefs, or my qualities. I am who I am. I am every single moment that I have lived. I am the good child, I am the bitch, I am the student, I am the daughter, I am the leader, I am the follower, I am the happy, I am the weird, I am who I am.

So, can you not see me for me? "Maybe that's because no one has ever given me the time of day to get to know me," as Andrew said in "what is a real man?" Even when I'm with my closest friends, or my closest cousins, I will never fully feel not alone. I don't know if it's just me or everyone who gets this feeling. The level of exposure, of nakedness, that takes to be not alone is too much for humans. Only God can see everything. Only He can see when one word from you can make my day feel sad. He is the only one who knows that I keep all my childhood resentments and feelings in my mind when I'm at my worst. When I hate the past, and when I love it. When I wish for something, and when I do it. I can have the the worst reasoning of all, but my experiences makes me bias towards myself, my experiences through all of my "spheres" as I like to call them, the different worlds and people I am with. Although I love being the loud smiling girl everyone knows me to be, I can't help but feel different outside. If I were to be completely another person and look at myself, I could never see me for me. There is so much dimension that someone else will even know.

These are the things I think about when I'm alone. When I can think for my self. When I can breathe. I'm not saying that I'm fake, I'm just saying that there's this inner part of me that no one will fully see, even when I meet my beloved. Everyone has this part inside of them.

Hello, I hope you got a sneak peak into my soul, the soul of Tracey Nguyen.

Blossoming

This weekend consisted of friendships blossoming in all of my worlds. I felt so loved. Just being around so many truly good people is something to live for. Friday I was fortunate to go to Daphne’s then to Zach’s. Although Steph and I probably spent 15 minutes outside it was nice to just talk. That evening was sooo much fun from dinner to Mean Girls.

I woke up multiple times Saturday morning but decided to skip work day and just keep sleeping. With so many awakenings I’d forgotten to reset my alarm and was late for the Conf. Retreat Team Meeting, and I got so many quotes (which I will share later) hanging in a little corner. In the evening we celebrated Nicole’s 18th birthday, and I must say I’m proud of that girl. We watched White Christmas which couldn’t be better because 1)1940s!!! 2) Music and 3) Christmas! After the two OLP girls left Nikki, Sarah, Vicki, Rachel, Lindsey, and really got to talk. We haven’t spent time together as a GSCS girls group in a really long time and I look forward to another one. I cherish the memories I have with these gals.

And today was Costco samples and Confirmation class. The moment I got there I was rushed into Victoria’s car and then we went to 7-11. Just so random. Pat walked to the car and even told Vicki to get him a bottled water, which I thought was pretty cool, just cause we thought we were going to get in trouble.

I successfully mopped the house but failed at starting my homework. It’s already Monday morning (12:27 am).

I’d like to close with a quote from Saturday:

“Jesus throws us lemons and we have the choice to make lemonade or let it be sour.” -Emilyne

Thankful

It’s been a crazy long time since my last real text blog. That’s what I was going for in the first place but now I’m heading in the opposite direction. Too much reblogging for me. I really don’t like the idea of Tumblarity, defeats the whole purpose of blogging. There should be a word count for Tumblairty. Oh, well the purpose of this text was not to be my rant on tumblr but of my long and wonderful Thanksgiving week.

The start of my break couldn’t have been better. Friday Night I watched random clips from movies and musicals with Julie, Kelli, Matt, and Ankur and later went to the Carlsbad game. Ditched that since we were just winning so by so much and nobody was really a “maniac.” Julie, the crazy Asian lady driver, gave the ladies two wins at the battle of the sexes race to Barnes and Noble and back. I was a little insane that day but when am I not? That night I saw Auntie Cuc at Starbucks with her friends while everyone had a Harry Potter identity while ordering. Who doesn’t love Potter allusions?

The next three days were relatively boring, although I did watch Rebel Without a Cause and my mom enjoyed it as well. Wednesday Amy and Michelle came over as we waited for Cau Tuan to bring our new bed for the guest room.

Thanksgiving was one of the better Thanksgivings in a while. I had a blast in Tiffany’s room with a little kids. Auntie Dung is a genius and had an Arts and Crafts table! So much fun. Glitter and visors and paper and messes. I felt like a kid again. Oh, and sour gummy worms! Yum! We also went to the park that day. 5 semi-older cousins with 5 little ones. Mina, Jenay, and I also had a ridiculous time yelling “Happy Thanksgiving” to Betty and Barbie over the phone while they were across the room. Just obnoxious. :D Later went to Di Uyen’s and watched Beyonce’s I am…Yours.

Black Friday. I’ve gone for eight years now. This year Fry’s, Wal-Mart, Denny’s, and Fashion Valley. Had some issues with a couple people but in the end everything was fine. And I did get some great deals! Oh, and my new name is Quinn according to my Starbucks order. ;]

That night was a major Nerf Gun fight. Can you say machine gun? Let’s just leave it at that.

Cheyenne and I were trying so desperately on Saturday to find a ride to Kamilah’s Debute since it was raining. All went well and I had a lovely time.

Grrrr….the worst part about the break was turning in my college apps. I just fjoaghioehgas. But, although it was so late notice, I got three people to edit my essay and I so appreciate them for that. I got to turn in my applications late Sunday night but got in trouble for it. Oh well, don’t think it will mean much. I just feel so good now. I’m done! I don’t even care if I get in anymore. I mean, it would be nice, and I do care, it’s just, so much less stress for me.

Well, I’m off to continue watching the Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show. Which reminds me….I need new panties!

Yahoo! Answers Fun

What we do during ASB work day.....Yahoo! Answers!




Their revenge.

The best question ever....and our answers.

Oh, Kevin, Hector, Julie, and I just make the best answers.

Murder Trial

At approximately 5 o'clock this afternoon, I had a nap. First off, my naps are usually in the afternoons and 3 hours. My body just naturally wakes up after 3 hours. So today I had the best dream ever! and I actually remember some of the events that happened. It was just really cool. Nobody else in the world would think that it's so cool. It's just, like a collection of my feelings and thoughs mixed in with a murder mystery event.

I don't neccesarily know the order of what happens but my scenes kept going back and forth, cause you know, dreams do that. Therefore, I'll split it into three parts.

There was a core team hang out! It was like a hangout spot kinda like the movies or the all-night party but it had the same feel as comic-con. We were all wearing our purple grapes too! There was a dark room kinda like a theather but kinda like Ballroom 20 of the convention center. I also went out (kinda like the exhibit hall) and then found the like and saw Vicki and Chey. But also, the hang-out was just core team (I guess) but also Good Shephered people I know like Amber. It was cool and fun (cause core team is always fun) but I had to miss a bulk of it because I kept calling my parents to see if I could stay longer. I really remember Mrs. Larson being there and that I kept having to hold blankets for Amber and Annie. (Yes Annie Le, you but I never physically saw you in my dream). Oh, and it was kinda like a sleepover thing I think.

A lot of the flashbacks and switching back and forth were of me watching the Disneyland fireworks out of a backyard. It was a really nice house I was in. The neighborhood looked like they could be millions but maybe that's cause I was looking at photos of UC campases before I fell asleep. I went out the back door, set up the chairs so I could get a better view, and watched in the bliss as Tinkerbell flew over the castle. However, I was still upset that I didn't see Fantasmic. It was honestly so beautiful though.

Murder? In a small table (like at fast foods) sat Joe, Stephanie, Kelli, Julie, me, and Dr. Steinbach. Yeah, Dr. Steinbach. Isn't that weird? It was either Dr. Steinbach or the guy that plays House. They kept switching and it was hard to visualize. But definately not Dr. Steinbach's personality or voice. It was weird. So we all got these black books (I think it's cause Julie, Kelli, and I were talking about Horocruxes today, oh, and for some reason the books reminded me of beef jerkey too.) We were all discussing out amazing findings of these books and then the Dr. Steinbach/House guy realizes there are drugs in the bindings and bookmarks, real powerful drugs. Then he says that he's going to use the drugs to kill someone. (I think maybe House if he isn't house, I forgot, but in my dream I knew who he was talking about). I looked at him with a disappointed face and said that's the meanest thing ever and that I was disappointed in him. Then I cried. It was a pretty epic scene even though it might not seem like it when saying out. In the moment it was pretty big. We all just sat around akwardly because we all knew that we couldn't stop him (I don't know why). Later on there were these trials about it some years later. I think some of us died because of the Steinbach/House guy. I do remember going arounds school and seeing some people (like while we gave out balloons today). Kelli and I also went back to the scene were we were sitting at the table. Steinbach/House guy, now apparently rich, changed it to a bathroom! But gosh, it was a really really nice bathroom. Pretty odd huh?

I woke up at 8. I was glad my famiy didn't wake me up. They usually do so we can all eat dinner together but not this time. I lucked out! I guess. But then I did wake up to find my brother and dad come home with Beatles Rockband!

Magical

This last week have been just so crazy and I have been so exhasted. I'm kinda disappointed at myself for not reading all the blogs I follow (on blogger) but then again it's kinda exciting cause I sorta have a life, if you call being at school all the time having a life. Being in charge of the Freshman Forum Fair is so exhasting and I forget all about Color Guard! I feel so bad. Hopefully it will be great tomorrow.

Being at school for registration can be fun. Although most of the time I was working on the fair there was some great times such as playing hide-and-seek with Hector by using radios. I hope the work I did this summer for ASB will make me look good and give me some credibility.

Friday I went to the happiest and most expensive place on earth, Disneyland! I went with Tammie, Lance, Minerva, and Jenay, my cousins. We got a Family Reunion pin, which is true because Tammie came back from Boston and Mina came back from Great Britian. It was so much fun and great to be with all five of them since we don't really have time together. Ka-Kah. Pixie dust. Spots. Oh Jesus. Fireworks. It was magical.

Yesterday and today was so chill. Mina and I just watched So You Think You Can Dance clips, Chicago, Across the Universe, and went to the beach. I feel tanner!

Boys Boys Boys, Paparazzi: My Lady Gaga songs of the moment.

Home Videos

"I don't care how poor a man is; if he has family, he's rich." -Dan Wilcox and Thad Mumford, "Identity Crisis," M*A*S*H

Looking through the window of your past with news eyes can be so rewarding. This evening my family and I watched home videos of my mainly Travor and I. They were of swimming, playing in the park, practicing gymnastics, birthday parties, baths, and just plain sitting there. It's fun to look back. I was super skinny. Darn you puberty! What can I say, I was a diva back then. I was so over the top and bossy. It's kinda funny and entertaining.

Also this evening, I walked into my dad's office while he was watching a youtube video. He was watching swiming tutorials! I just thought it was hilarious. Not only was he watch them but they were from a young guy with like hip hop playing in the back. Then my dad starts showing everyone in the house the videos. Too funny.

...and my last wonderful family memory of the evening: my mom listening to the ipod in her bed singing Backstreet Boy's I Want It That Way.

The Week

No realy blogs since the 11th. Gosh, how am I so busy with nothing? How am I suppose to record my life when I don't take the time to?

I don't remember everything that happend since then but I do recall visits and lots of old movies: Golddiggers of 1933, Footlight Parade, Annie Get Your Gun, and Breakfast at Tiffany's. I did watch a new movie, G.I. Joe, with Lance and Travor. Entertaining. The next night was BUNKO! How can an game with old ladies be so fun? Well, I actually didn't play with the old ladies. I brought Travor along and am glad he had fun with my friends. I also brought him along to mountain biking with Snow White and Tarzan. Can you say epic fail? It was like all uphill but still, it was fun.

This past week I feel like I've already done a lot of work. I've made the agenda for the next core team meeting (which I'm not sure Pat will use) and I've emailed all the club adviors about the Freshman Forum Fair. Crazy. On Monday we had an ASB Meeting and then I went to Giusti's office for the first time. It was even the first time I ever spoke to him. After the meeting I went bowling with Snow White, Travor, Amy, Michelle, and Kevin (Travor's friend). It was fun and yet I failed once again. I remember doing really good when I was younger. Sucks.

You know what else sucks? Not being able to go to the Uganda Benefit! Oh well, I'm going to Disneyland with the cousins instead! The happiest and most expensive place on earth.

Oh man, the military called me! They tried to recruit me into the army. I felt so bad for the guy. He was honestly trying and I felt like he was wasting his time with me. Dang, 10 minutes trying to get off the phone. "I'm not strong," was my excuse. Ha....

This week also included two Altar-serving training dates. Cheyenne and I had some laughs when I told her about Good Shepherd School questions, Vactican I Catholics, and the Vietnamese wife(?!).

The rest of my week awaits...

More....water?

Some more photos of camp:


I love that shot.


Hot Priest, Hot Nun



Group 6: Jesus + Friends
Missing Katie, Amanda, and Billy's head


Sen10rs!


Sometimes I wish my stream of conscientiousness can be recorded whenever I wished it to.

Anyways, I didn't do much during my weekend. I tried to catch up on sleep then watched my cousins and my brother's swim meet on Saturday. I miss swimming. I love getting into and feeling half in air half in water. Hehe...a cute lifeguard told me he likes my sunglasses.
Sunday I actually got to be in the water. It felt great and made be more confident although right now that confidence has vanished since I just ate ice cream and two cookies!
Monday my time at the VA was not so pleasant. One of the ladies wanted to send Jennifer and I back to Volunteer Services since Shawn wasn't there. Say what? That's why we're not coming back this week.

So last night I had a dream that included being stranded in the ocean with my brother and my cousin Lance. We had some survivor moments and then found land. This morning I was listening to AJ's Playhouse and they had this dream lady on and apparently water has to deal with that time of month. and guess what...I'm on mine!

Hot Priest, Hot Nun

Why is it that the cutest people at camp are going to be a priest and a nun. I'll have people to back that up too. The second picture is off Pam and me. Gosh I love her! She's such an inspiration and the highlight of my days. I feel bad for all the guys. We "lost another one" as Jenna said in her witness talk. So Pam remembered my name, took a picture with me, waved at me at dinner, and she called me her friend! Ahhh! She is my idol icon. She so sweet and cute and kind, and so like our Blessed Mother!

Ok, enough of my obsession of Pam.

Camp Emmaus was the best! The moment I came back on my driveway I just wanted to come back. It truly is true that the best friends we make are those in faith.

I must say, this year I had the best small group I had ever had. Group 6, Jesus + Friends consisted of myself, Gerard, Amanda, Katie, Adriana, Billy, Shayan, Kyle, Ally, Rayven, and of course, Jesus! OMJ, we connected right away and had the best moments ever. Affirmations were amazing. They always make me feel so good. I had such a good time with them. So many memories including Connie, soda machines, "You need to freshen up," matchmaker, moms, I love you's rocking out, lusting, and so much more. Oh, and I got back at Ally when it came to cute boys. haha!

Not only did I have an fabulous small group, my cabin had seven beautiful ladies! Although Charisse left, Deanna, Stephanie, and Cheyenne moved in with Jasmine, Victoria, Nina, and me. We had the loveliest talks at night, and getting to talk about faith at night just reminds me that there are others like me out there. We had the best time ever. Vicki's black lady alter ego came out! She is so scary! There was also a night when Nina flashed her flashlight on and off at Cheyenne and I so we started to do model poses. I kinda got a little carried away and got recorded! Oh dear. They also took an embarrassing photo of me when I made my body go through the ladder to say hi to Estephanie. I love those girls.

All the night activities were just incredible. Sunday night's concert had everyone getting into the music and faith. I think Monday night was when we split the girls and guys up and it was just so inspiring. Tuesday night we watched The Ultimate Gift, which I totally call the protagonist (he's such a hottie). I highly recommend watching that movie. The talent show on Wednesday night was so much fun and to have affirmations following that was just perfect.

I think my favorite part about camp this year was Adoration. It was so powerful and occurred after the Mass my group was a part of. It's kinda weird that Fr. Joe was wearing sandals during Adoration but that's ok. It was just so, I don't know how to describe it other than powerful. You could definitely feel Jesus's presence when we sang, and when we had a pause in singing in the middle, I could hear all our voices in the wind. Jesus definitely has the most beautiful name in the world. Just saying his name can give chills.

There's always more to tell but there's so much I wouldn't be able to tell everything.

I love Camp Emmaus! "It's an everyday thing."

Camp Emmaus

IS TOMORROW!!!! yay! I'm so excited and am so ready for a faith high! Oh, and cute Catholic boys! ha, I'm so bad. I'm excited for that as well.
My aunt had (and is still having) a party with her friends so Travor and I decided to bike to Sarah's house. Again we went to the park and did made obstacle courses.

"Hey that slide has speed bumps!"

Oh, my brother.

Everyday I make a mental note to "blog that" but I always end up forgetting.

Childhood Hickies

I had a lovely visit from Snow White and Belle today. It was fun to not work on my personal essay. We looked up pick up lines, made confessions, and talked about hickies made as a child! I though I was the only weird person. It's glad to have more than one person to talk to. Ranting is good. Oh, how I wish I could go out more.
My mom is going to a reunion this weekend and thus, she has been practicing how to walk in heels. It's pretty sad, she is just so unnatural when she walks with them on....but....we're getting there and I'm glad she's got a hot outfit for the dinner! This whole week she's been fussing over what she'll wear. It's so cute.
Senior pictures. Ah, which ones to choose????
I lost my keys. Gosh, it sucks so much cause my parents are pissed. They like disappeared. I really hope I'll find them. Good think I don't have a car.
Camp is just in 3 days!!! I'm so excited! I've already starting putting clothes all over my bed. I hope everyone will make the most out of it.

I'd like to leave my nonexisting audience this thought:

"Napping should have the status of daily exercise.”

-James B. Maas, a Cornell University sleep expert

I highly suggest sleeping outside in the afternoon under some shade. Such bliss.

Awww screw it

I'm too lazy to blog today.

Comic-Con 2009

This year's Comic-Con was a blast! Most of my time was spent watching panels rather than walking around the exhibit hall. I bought a R2D2 backpack that I wanted since last year and I currently have a Pikachu tattoo on! I successfully was able to take a photo with a celebrity too!

Tyrese Gibson!

Sorry for all the crappy pictures. They were from my phone. They are in no particular order.

Adam Baldwin on Friday and Milo Ventimiglia on Saturday.

The creators of Spongebob. Happy 10th Aniversary!

Heroes Panel:

New cast members. (There's one more though.)

Milo and Zachary Quinto!!!!!!

Adrian Pasdar and Hayden Panettiere

Jack Coleman and Masi Oka

Cast of Fringe

Cast of Glee. Saw them at the Panel too.

Chuck Panel:

Scott Krinsky, Vik Sahay, Captain Awesome, and Sarah Lancaster

Joshua Gomez, Zachary Levi, Yvonne Strahovski, and a writer?

Jeffster rocking out!
The Chuck panel is probably my favorite panel. Each year I laugh like crazy! This cast definately has personality.

The above pictures are of some voice actors of Star Wars: The Clone Wars and their friends. My brother and I saw them at their booth and at the panel and so when we were waiting outside for our cousin to pick us up we freaked. But we were to chicken to ask to take a picture with them since they seemed busy. The guy who plays Anakin, Matt Lanter (The one with the backpack), is EXTREMELY cute!!! The photo on the right is Ashley Eckstein who plays Ahsoka.

Do you think my future kids would hate it if I named them Anakin and Ahsoka?

Star Wars Spectacular Panel featuring the cast from Star Wars: The Clone Wars and Kevin pereira and Olivia Munn

Before the Star Wars panel, while my brother and I were walking in, all the G4 people walked in.

This weekend I was thinking to myself, I'm not really a Star Wars nerd cause I don't know all the names of everything as well as others stuff, like the planets. My brother knows a lot more since he plays video games. But then I thought, "I have a Darth Vader shirt, a Millenium Falcon pin, a Star Wars soundtrack, and now I have a R2D2 backpack. I am a nerd."

District 9 Panel:

Peter Jackson and Sharlto Copley


WB Panel:

Sherlock Holmes

Rachel McAdams and Robert Downey Jr.

The Book of Eli

Mila Kunis, Gary Oldman (Commissioner Gordon in The Dark Night and Sirius Black), and Denzel Washington

Jonah Hex

Megan Fox and Josh Brolin

I tried so hard to take a picture of them at the WB Booth but I failed.

The Box

Cameran Diaz and JAMES MARSDEN!!!!!

A Nightmare on Elm Street

Jackie Earle Haley who plays Freddy Kruger (and Rorschach in Watchmen)

I guess I didn't take a picture of the kid from Where the Wild Things Are and the guy from Criminal Minds. We were just walking around when we saw him and when we pasted him we were like "Was that just..." and this lady who just talked to him was like "Yep that's him." Also, while in line for Glee, three people in head of us was apparently this famous guys who was on Bufy and Dollhouse. So many people were asking for an autograph, photo, or both that I felt bad for him. He was nice but I felt like he really just wanted to finish his conversation with his friends. I actually feel bad for his friends who have to wait for him. Sorry for not italisizing all the titles, I just forgot and don't want to go back.

There's so much more to tell but I'll never remember it all from running into people to waiting in lines to finding really awesome stuff like this one guy who had a clone hoodie that zipped all the way up so when you zipped it up your head would be of a Clone Troppers! Isn't that neat?